哭

曾经有那么两个人对我说过同一句话
只记得自己当时是强忍眼泪，勉强地笑着说没事
然后脑海一片空白，眼泪不断的流不断的流
流了多少的岁月我也不知道了

今天晚上这一种感觉又回来了
他说他不明白为什么我哭
我也不明白
我不是一个容易哭的人，能忍的我都会咬紧下唇忍过去不让自己哭
我真的不知道为什么我哭

我只知道我不快乐

STOP THAT!

I'll continue on my winter break stories some other time but definitely not now..

STOP saying me for being brainless while you are never a smart one to me!

Everyone does being ignorant by time.. so do I. but not all the while..

Fuck off my way if you think you can't communicate with me or if you keep saying me brainless!

brief talk on my second year winter break

okay, i know it has been quite some while for not updating my blog. It's a month away since I finished my last paper till now i got my results. Not a bad one i should say. Okay, it's not a very good one frankly, but at least i passed all the papers and sort of out of my expectations.

okay, done for that. Lets talk about my winter break.

Dad and mom finally visited me in Perth for the first time since this is my third year over here. Have to say that they are not very welcomed by me (i know it's bad ><"), cuz you know, girl like me always seek for 100% freedom never want to be caged once escaped from it.. but I LOVE THEM muchHHH as always do. Uncle Bambang and auntie Tammy been really kind on daddy-mommy's visit. Thanks heaps to them as i don't really have much time for the first few days, busy preparing for my exam (not really busying on that><"). okay, papa really enjoys Perth weather and i think they jogged at kings park everyday. And definitely they visit kings park more than i do overall for 3 damn years. But i think it's a bit too cold for them during winter since they are getting older now. I bet mama loves spring the most. She loves nature. Additional part -- mama turns a bit weird after not seeing her for 5 months. Been learning dowsing after i left on Feb. (if you are interested in what dowsing are, you are always free and welcome to google it, cuz i'm not too sure as well :p ) SHE IS JUST LIKE A WITCH NOW!! haha! that's what we say that all the time... even papa says, she is witch-erer nowwww :P

okay, back to my winter break. after i finished my last paper, uncle bambang, auntie tammy, papa, mama and me headed straight right to margeret river. been travelling all the way from perth to margeret river and to albany on his 1.2 mil collection benz ><" PHEWWW... 6000cc!!!!! 6000cc!!! you might not get the chace in your life time to sit on a 6000cc, costing a bungalow price car travelling on the road!! glad i had it!! hrmm.. too bad. i don't have the photo with me ><" will post it up some other day.

First day in margaret river, it was rainy Wednesday, not a very nice weather to travel. but we get to see the greenish ever field in the world, BLACK cows, wineries and blue blue sky all the way to margeret river. nothing much to do in margeret river, visiting winneries and caves is most we can do there. We visited the Mammoth Cave. Quite a huge cave and a interesting one. We get the chance to take our imaginations to the fullest and see all of nature's fantastic forces at work. And also, i have tried the best lamb shank in my life on that night's meal.

Papa woke me up at 7am the next morning. Had our breakfast at DOME. and then continue on our journey to albany. uhmm.. can't remember what we have done on that day. Photos are all with papa. nothing for me to recall. The third day, Friday, headed to a place called Denmark, where tree top walk is. THIS IS REALLY INTERESTING AND FUN!! something to add on, i knock my head on a tree trunk when i was running towards mama and i fell like what you always see in cartoon. damn it! luckily noone's there.

to be continued....