36°C BURN MY ARSE OFF!!

everything in this apartment is old enough to chuck them away

especially the damn AC

it never works in the winter neither summer!!

breez air is just too luxurious for now

i'm melting and evaporating

sooner or later if this crazziie weather still stays the same or gets worse

ronny biatch and bb can wear the veiled bow headband from david jones to my funeral

It is cute :P BUT definitely when it's not on ronny

wanted to start a lil' bit of studying for the test this coming tues

but it's just too much for now ><"

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It's time to get dress up for ronny sexy biatch's bday party!

HAPPY SEXY 20th Miss Horny > Ronny!!

Ronny's favourite cake ever in her life time :D

My Summer Break Plan

After whole day of walking and standing

Working from 11 till 2, and shopping from 4 to 9.30.

I can't feel my legs and arse.. only plain numbness

For the very first time, I do think i spent wisely today! only 55 on the skin care products for the whole evening

I get a set of biotherm Aquatrio which is on promotion that included cleanser, toner and moisturizer, which is worth definitely more than 55 bucks!

Hurray! Say "good job!" to kaimin for this great achivement!!

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I will be back on the 13th of November

WHY so early? You must be asking

Have to attend ma's convo on the 14th. What to do.. she is THE master (in my family as well)

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Kevin dai lou: Oi! tell u a secret.. We are planning for a road trip to penang end of Nov. Or maybe an air trip by Air Asia since it's freaking cheap tix selling out there.

Me: JOIN ME IN!!! But.. Why is this a secret?

Kevin dai lou: Cuz noone tells u yet. So it's still a secret among us but not u.

Me: =.=

But I'm really looking forward to it.

Since my dad doesn't allow me to visit europe before jie, so I will be damn free from the afternoon I arrive Msia till the day i leave to europe with jie (or maybe not) around 10th of Dec


If the penang secret trip is on in the end of the day, i am booked for end of Nov then!

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Another good news from Mr. Wei

Mr. Wei: Hey idiot! I will be visitng Msia end of the year with my gf.

Me: Really!!!???? No joke please..

blah blah blah...

Me: Ask Rob to join u two. Or else im gonnna be lonely when touring with u sweet couple, and i hate it! I want my baby to be with me in Msia as well..

Mr. Wei: OK! i will try my best to pull him over. But he loves Msia much. Most probably the plan is on.

Me: HURRAAYYY!!

blah blah blah...

And Im really excited now

Blogging here right after a chat with Mr. Wei

Busy planning for Mr. Wei's visit but god knows, my final is just a step away

My library plan hopefully will still be on next week and the week after

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I can barely open my eyes and type now

By only squeezing to get the focus point

Well.. a very early good night to me.

Loved

I'm in love, and hope to be loved

I love him as much as how he loves me

I treat him as good as how he treats me

But if you treat someone great sincerly, you don't have to show/tell anyone

as long he is happy and he knows

But too bad. Like he never knows how much I'm in love with him

We always argue for nothing, seriously nothing

And he never knows that i treat him good, or maby so do I

He might be the one of the best among guys I have met

But sometimes he just being a bit ridiculous

How hurt am I everytime when he shouted at me

You'll never know

But one thing for sure, he is sad as well

So why do we still make up fights day and night?

I don't know

I have changed so much for him, or maybe not

And still not enough to be best yet, I should say

I just want to be loved

and to love

How can someone's story, bring me close to tears

当一张机票还不如一件内衣贵的时候，这个世界到底怎么了？

前几天在学校走着，看着一个女生，从头到脚，眼镜，衣服，耳环，手袋，鞋子都是香奈儿的。我突然很想知道这个世界到底怎么了？

突然想起去年看过的一个短片。非常值得一看的。很喜欢结尾的那首歌。。


http://brajeshwar.com/2009/chicken-a-la-carte/


歌词：

Let me tell their story
That no one else can hear
How can someone’s laughter
Bring me close to tears

And you’ll never know
Cause you’re never there
After what we’ve seen
Can we close our eyes again

Let me tell you their story
You won’t think its true
I have not forgotten
So I’m sharing it with you

For all the things we know
What have we really learned
Though I close my eyes
The images remains

And their story begins again

我不知道我自己曾不曾做过善事，我希望以后我有能力的时候，我可以去做。

什么时候当作善事已经变成一门生意？谁不是满口慈悲，谁不是满口同情？当明星为了自己的钱途而去做善事，是不是人的良心都被金钱的魅力磨灭得所剩无几？

当一颗米，可以沉重得付出了千万人的性命，年轻人的奢侈，反而变成理所当然了。。当人类没有衣裳的时代，名牌已经存在着。有钱的人，都穿皮衣。穷人把草当裤穿。不是一切的东西都可以追根究底，好像就是自然定律。

当坑人钱已经变得理所当然，已经重要过把钱花在更有意义的事情上时，一张纸的重量，就是几条人命了。

全球化，把有钱人身上的全部甚至连一滴血都是金做成的，把穷人却一个一个推向悬崖的边缘，全球化，是好是坏？造福的是你是我还是淘汰了他们？

有钱人的钱，都是从穷人身上剥削取得的。所以就算马来西亚政治再怎么的不稳定，政府再多么的腐败，有钱的人还是越来越多，移民的商人也越来越多的时候，基地依然不会离开马来西亚。能赚到的钱，依然是在马来西亚。穷人依旧的穷，更穷，更多更多。

这个年代已经没有神存在。如果把神都化作钱，造福的是全世界。如果说神是万能，相信任何宗教的神的人，都是神的子弟，那为什么挨穷挨饿的人还是数之不尽？

宗教信仰只不过是精神寄托，当发生了自己无法寻求到答案的事情的时候，责任就是往神身上推。 宗教是慢性催眠剂。

如果哪一刻我们变成了非洲饥民，是不是相信这一切都是上帝的惩罚会好过一些？

when to put religion and money together, nothing can make sense out there.



前几天又阅读了一篇文章，“八岁女童的遗言” -- 我来过，我很乖。

http://feifei850123.blog.163.com/blog/static/1109370132009240480750/

如果这六个字是用尽她毕生能力去写的，也许她会是下一个人间罕有的天才。又或者说，如果她不是在那种环境成长，也许世界上不会有人写出这六个字的遗言。

当我们花每一分钱的时候，是不是可以理智想一想？不能说应不应该，也不是必不必须。

我给自己的借口是，偶尔的放纵是能理解的。

年度最佳email http://blog.163.com/rumeng6630@126/blog/static/494972202008980313215/

八分的爱

太爱一个人，你会太在乎他（她）会跟谁在一起，心里是否有你，你的眼球会因为老跟着他（她）而显得迷茫，会牵肠挂肚，患得患失。

太爱一个人，你会在想到要见他（她）时而神经兮兮地翘首以待，当他（她）离去时又怅然若失。

太爱一个人，你会刚说再见却又心生思念。

太爱一个人，你会因为他（她）的温柔而满怀甜蜜，更会因为他（她）的冷漠而郁郁寡欢。

太爱一个人，会被他（她）牵着鼻子走，如被魔杖点中，完完全全不能自我。从此你没有了自己的思想，没有了自己的喜怒哀乐，你以他（她）为中心，跟着他（她）在一起时，他（她）就是整个世界；不跟他（她）在一起时，世界就是他（她）。

太爱一个人，会无原则地忍受他（她）。慢慢地他（她）习惯于这种纵容，无视你为他（她）的付出，甚至会觉得你很烦，太没个性，甚至开始轻视、怠慢，不尊重你......

太爱一个人，你无异于一支蜡烛，奋不顾身地燃烧，只为求得一时的光与热。待蜡烛燃尽，你什么都没有了。而对方只是一个手电筒，他（她）可以不断放入新电池，永远保持活力。

太爱一个人，他（她）会习惯你对他（她）的好，而忘了自己也应该付出，忘了你也一样需要得到同等的回报——他（她）完全被你宠坏了。不要以为你爱对方十分，他（她）也爱你十分，爱是不讲道理的，所以很多时候，爱也是不平等的。

不要爱一个人爱的浑然忘却自我。那样全身心的爱只应出现在小说里，这个社会越来越不欢迎不顾一切的爱。给他（她）呼吸的空间，也给自己留个余地——飞蛾扑火的爱情，正在进行时固然让人觉得壮美，但若他（她）成为过去式时，你如何收拾那一地的狼藉？投入那么多，你能否面对那惨重的损失？

所以爱一个人不要爱到十分，八分已经足够了。剩下的两分用来爱自己。

爱是毒药，说，容易；做到，很难。

如果你做不到，那至少就不要太过分地爱。世上所有的事都不能超过它额定的范围，适可而止就可以了。风雨由天，聚散随缘，距离也是一种美，爱自己多一点，你的生命留给自己作主，不要老是忘不了在你生命中出现过的人，其实他（她）们都是过客，只有善待自己，你才会快乐、美丽！

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我觉得这篇东西挺有意思的。说的是男女之间的爱，不是博爱的爱。

也许你会不赞同，经历过的总是会明白。。

爱，是包含了对方和自己，学会了爱自己，才能爱别人。

珍惜自己，爱惜自己

september 2009 highlights

Went to ASIAN cocktail finally for the first time. it wasn't that bad as ppl has been telling me. was a tiring night. maybe 've been too long not wearing heels.. surprisingly, rae thought that i was a bad gf ><" hit the club right after my boy left.. LOL! NO WAY!! this is the one and only time for this sem! and i did tell darling bout it! ONE MORE THING, i don't know why all my friends couldn't recognize me in the club!! grrr... do i really look that different?? sob..

my second pair of heels from ALDO~~

after heavy make up *which i dont think it's heavy! it's just with the eye shadow on*

with only mascara on

yiyi and zhan prefered the second me.. they just simply hate me putting on make up! ya lar yalar.. i didn't put on foundation for this whole year d.. i love my skin now.

oh yah! i went to the kings park wildflower festival as well. it's not about the flowers, but about people you going with! it's fun.. thanks so much for the day! by the way, the flowers around uni is even more attracting ><"

what i have done then was just slacking.. plain slacking.

until last thursday. gone panic because of anthropology essay which was due on friday.didn't sleep that night. then another major essay for psychology and management on monday and tuesday. so practically, from thurday until tuesday, i have only slept for not more than 12 hours!! and i still have my eye bags now! which i never have one ever before this!!

finally got everything done.. and it's 2009 spring feast again!! heading to it soon and will stay in lirbary till late with baybehh tonight.. *time to study study study! it's just a blink away to final*

one more thing, it's not a happy one. I HATE MY HOUSEMATE SO MUCH! she is just a disgusting bitch! imagine what if one day right after u get up and walk to the toilet, and you see some used pad on the sink. and another lovely morning, u see a used swab stick placing on your hair band...GGGGGRRRR!! i just want to kill her so badly!! how could a girl be so disgusting?! although i have been rated as the most disgusting girl in the world by baybeh and the webcam spoiler :P

ishhh.. lets don't talk about her. will just annoyed me

one last thing, i bought this 1970s heater 2 weeks ago while waiting for my modern heater which i ordered it online some while ago. i know summer is just around the corner, but the weather here is just way too unpredictable!

one last thing, my favourite egg tart from longmen! *yummyYYY*