insomnia days and nights

this is real bad. REAL REAL BADDDDD!!

the tears of tiredness dripping down, trying my best to squeeze my eyes to make sure it stay still on the laptop screen, i know it's hurtful. ok. when always about to break down at 2am, and then hop on my bed with my bathrobe on which really keeps me warm before i get my online ordered heater from AUSpost, get the quilt covering my whole body and just about to get a good sleep, then, I BEGAN TO LOSE MY SONG...

till the six in the morning.. birds singing out there reminding me..4 more hours to sleep... bothering me even more ><"

this happens since thursday, which means, i was forced to sleep for only 12 hours for 3 days!!!!

what lar.. nearly mentally break down after one damn week of flu. and now insomnia..

you know the worst was, when i came to the front of escalator heading to the lower floor, bb was pointing at the escalator and telling me to head down, but i kept walking to the oppose direction of the escalator saying that, "NO!! this escalator is heading up. it's coming up not going down!"

and..

perth city is a dead one. i can even walk with my eyes close without entering the wrong shops, and not banged by the cars when crossing the roads. when things went wrong, i can't even remember where is the entrance for the shopping mall!! and in my mind at that moment, i kept thinking that it was only a huge blank wall which in turn, it's the freaking entrance of the shopping mall with the shine bright white lights on.

what's going on with me?? hrm.. severe brain damaged???

no good no good. real bad real bad...

WORST as i said in the title.. "day" and "night"..even just a short nap in the day time, some unknown thoughts just bothering me so much and sweep me off from the lala land.

what i want now is a musical spinning top with lullaby song.. i miss it for real!