June

Seems like it was just yesterday I posted my previous post.


The exam timetabe on my wall reminds me it is only 2 days away from my first paper.


STRESS STESS STRESS!


Friends that know me well, have never seen me being so stress out before, and never start preparing before the study break. I used to be so cheer and relax before in all the past 20 years exams.


But why? Instead of having 4 papers this sem, I have only got 3.


I never get a good sleep for 2 months, i never hang out for 2 months, being economical wise, i stay at home all the time and cook my own food :)


So what's the deal in turn, still I am last minute for all the assignments, and got the results as I have expected. but but but.. I dont socialize anymore!!!! great lose!


Hrm hrm, one least thing to be excited on, which my hair is growing longer and longer that I have never had! but but but again... lossing more hair for being too stress out!!!! GOSHH! It's being even out, so I'm still unhappy.. :(


25th of June is me and my big fat lovey boy's 18th Monthsary. Unbelievable right.. :) believe it.. cuz we gonna be together as long as we are alive!

Didn't contact with family for a month, cuz they are still enjoying their 1month US trip GGEEZZZ!!!!!

After all, it's just some bubble in the air.. : ( they will never know how disappointed I was. cuz pa and ma think that Im too greedy.. Or maybe I'm always the happy girl, that can deal with unhapiness all the time without care from anyone. NO I AM NOT!

In compensation, I am going to hokkaido and shanghai expo. but what, not the greedy issue, maybe just envious and jealousy, my brother has been to japan for several times, and definitely, he has travelled to more countries than I do. So I dont see how the claim on 'you shouldnt be that greedy and wanting to travel everywhere all the while at this age' from my mom applied.

My brother travelled to japan at the age of 15, then to korea, HK, europe, US, everywhere.. just everywhere for several times...and I have never been korea, not japan, not US..

Maybe I'm too greedy to compare with someother kids, but hey, I'm not comparing this with a stranger, but to my brother! Can't see how wrong I am to be jealous like a bitch..

In order to balance back my hormones and thoughts, I have spent more on skin care products and good food. Travelling is still important to me, since I dont have the luck to travel to great places like US for one damn month, I have always look for other ways to cheer myself up!

And I say, I'm gonna travel there one day but sadly, it will not be the joy with my family.

*12 days away after 5 damn months