MERRY X'MAS 2010

2010的圣诞节凌晨三点，很精神，头脑想很多东西，要写下

去年的圣诞节在英国，今年在马来西亚，真的不喜欢。明年还是计划一个旅行吧！

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人生的污点就是人生的污点

有些人，见了，太多余，浪费时间，确实如此，也只不过彼此彼此

以前，向往的，是自己认为他们那种所谓的自由，所谓的友谊

统统都是垃圾

家人反对，朋友反感，还是如此坚持自己的想法，成了人生的污点

太脏

现在，看见的，还是一群真的是物以类聚的人类，依然所谓的自我封闭式的友谊，那么的narrow and shallow

开始看清了，觉得以往太傻，污点依然在

还是如此的脏

人总会成长，希望我也会

栋笃笑

今天花了半天的时间来load youtube上的栋笃笑

然后花了差不多两个小时在看

名句有很多都不记得了

“以前写日记，是给自己看，现在写日记是在网上，给的是别人看。。。那是传记”

还蛮浪费时间

不过免费的

说到免费，想到的是可怕的HPV vaccine

为祸人间的预防针

tsk tsk

十年以后，就能看见结果

希望这一切都是不真实的

结果总是有好有坏，这是对三十万今年13岁的小女孩最好的安慰

现在当上了父母的父母们，免费的还是得经过大脑思考

给未来将当父母的青年们，利用我们的知识去避免一些可被避免的悲剧

唉

感叹总是有的

人云亦云是可怕的，经一经大脑，总是好的

至少

在我的人生字典里面

免费，绝对不会是一个理由或动力

values

If you are from a traditional family, like most of the Chinese kids do, guess you are educated with this

"learn how to cook nice food, and boil nice soup, that's the key to bond the family"

IT IS TOTALLY WRONG TO ME.

personally, i love to cook so much! i keep practicing, keep learning, keep creating new recipes

but it's a hobby, not a career

family is definitely not my career for the rest of the life, but i will always love my family more than anything

mom once told me,

"you get marry, and you will be your husband's wife, but you are not his house's wife"

learned from poor dad rich dad,

"if you never want to spend your lifetime in the kitchen, don't ever learn to cook"

guess this is wrong too! but can't deny, that's a good way for education purpose

i love to cook, so i learn to cook, just like how i love to spend, so i must learn to earn more than my spending

I always wish that money can be earned whenever i think but not with any action

BUT THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE

mom once again told me,

"laziness is the worst liability you can ever have with you"

To-Do & Shopping list

In case, I forget since I have too many things to do and too much things wanted to buy

To-Do List

(1) shop-&-spree
(2) treatment for my butt length hair
(3) curl my well treated silky smooth butt length hair
(4) dye my curly butt length hair
(5) change glasses
(6) online enrollment
(7) photo-shooting goodies
(8) learn to cook and bake more yummilicious food
(9) explore more in KL
(10) prezzies for besties
(11) shop MORE MORE MORE AND MORE!


Shopping List

(1) Thongs
(2) Bags
(3) Shoes (Not necessary)
(4) Accessories
(5) Sun glasses (MJ)
(6) Lotion
(7) Clothes
(8) just anything :P

MVB

not a vulgar word :P

Were talking about Lebron James the other night,

remind me of those days watching NBA together with bro

then there was this fine Sunday morning, watching a match of Lebron James, bro wanted to know how the narration be like in Cantonese.

And he clicked the "I-II" on the controller

There went the laughter from the beginning of the match till the end just because of the funny translation of the players' names

LA-BONG-JIM-SI (Lebron James)

What I love to watch NBA is the precious moment I spend with bro, and he non stop sharing his passion and knowledge in basketball and telling me each and every player's story

And I actually treasure them like bible. It's all fresh in my mind even until now

I know Lebron James of course from my bro.

LJ was the MVP in his high school.

But my bro never tell me what's MVP stand for, learned that from Slam Dunk

So back to the story,

we were talking about LJ, and from MVP to MVB

it's just simply most valuable bi :D

WHATEVER

yea larh yea larh, I'm so damn uneducated.

I have to say so,

I'm sorry

My parents dont have such a kid that love to scold others uneducated.

PRAY HARDDD!!

Firstly, my melbourne trip is on for sure :)

Secondly, hopefully my bangkok trip with darling will on :S

Thirdly, i really wanted to go to Shanghai! shall I??

But but but but but but....

IF ONLY MY LONDON TRIP IS ON, I WILL POSTPONE MY BANGKOK TRIP AND GIVE UP MY SHANGHAI TRIP.

PRAY HARD :)

Methylparaben

I have never ever come to this word, until just now, browsing FB and I found the videoclip I shared on PARABEN.

So i googled on paraben.

and i found methylparaben. (they are from the same family)

If you are interested in it, just google on it.

And after all the research thingy (which i have never been so passionate on researching a thing)

I ran to my bathroom and check on every single bottle of shampoo, bodywash, face wash, mask, hand wash, hair care products, toothpaste AND i ran back to the room, check on all the bottles on the cosmetic shelf, including lotions, toners, moisturizers, eye cream, acne treatment products, lip balms, eye shadows, blushers, nail polish, ETC ETC..

90% of them, having methylparaben as one of the acidic ingredients.

What so big deal since I have already (any other girls in this world do) put on so freaking hell lot (more than 40) of chemical thing on my skin every single day and night???


Research shown that, there is a link between methylparaben and breast cancer, which this chemical have it in 99% of all the skin products as the preservative to enhance their shelf life.

BREAST CANCER?!! It seriously freaks me out..

it is the worst enemy ever to all female.

You might heard from your grandmas if you are lucky enough, "dont put so much thing on your skin, it is bad"

So you might think that what so big deal, nothing happen to me also, and they actually help to promote a better looking skin. OR you might think that, aiya, they are ancient people, dont know anything on skin care products and cosmetics, just ignore it.

that's what i thought so at least...

Well, they happen to be a reason for each and single thing your grandma tells you.

they know it is bad for you, is just like how they used to tell me, not to drink cold drinks, and wet my hair during period. BUT they can never understand why, and to explain to you scientifically (since we are born in such a scientific world)

NOT THAT THEY ARE DUMB, BUT THEY ARE JUST NOT AS LUCKY AS US.

Having researchers all over the world, telling you what is good and bad for you. proving what our grandmas told us are true by giving scientific explanations

they dont know all these.

all they know is from experiences, from people they know. passing from one generation to another, and to us, by not appreciating the more than 100++ years experienced talks.

SHAME ON MYSELF..

I wont chuck all of them to bin now, since I have spent thousands on them. But will definitely gradually move to organic stuff like what my mom have been using for more than 10 years (PROUD OF HER)

I dont have a perfectly flawless skin, and i never wish to have such a bad skin. I'm born with it. I have spent a lot to reduce bad conditions. came to think of it, I have bad skin, I need a lot of skin care products, but in return, I risk my own life..

Life is never fair...

I have always wish to have a flawless skin, less problematic skin, insensitive skin, and i can stay away from all these chemicals..

bless me..

Stupidest formula ever

This is obviously the wrong way to work the relationship out, yet you still think that it is the best way. Or, there is another reason behind for your impatience?

The stupidest formula ever, you and me, a relationship is definitely not based on scientific calculation.

"If only to have a good treat from you, or having a 小女人, I have to treat you bad"
"If I treat you nicely, you will treat me bad"

So, here am I to tell you, this is really stupid!

I appreciate you, that's why I treat you good. Not that in return, I am begging for your love. Or expecting you giving me a good treat.

If you think this is the best for you, I'm sorry. Look for some other girls that think it will be the best for her as well. I am definitely not the one.

If you think that I'm immature much, go ahead.

At least, this is what my thought is, and I hate you challenging my love towards you in this way.

Seriously, they think that we are good, because I have changed much for you. Indeed, you have changed a lot as well, to a shitty asshole like now.

I have never ever ever told others about how bad you treating me, and I swear, but I can't take it anymore!

All the while, I have been praising you much in front of others, and trying to be happy and proud in this relationship. I thought so, but I was so wrong.

You never trust me, I know that. so what.. I never bother to explain to others. Go ahead with your attitude to me..

Never.

Never ever know that I get to be this childish at the age of 21

Getting more and more uncontrollable of my jealousy sometimes when I think about other girls receiving lovely prezzie (small ones) from bf, for celebrations or maybe just an ordinary day to have surprise on

I have received nothing, not for anniversary, not for my birthday. I'm not that demanding, I should consider myself as. A small lovely one will do and will definitely make my day (or month) perfect.

I always think that I'm the one that think of buying this and that for him.. I know I couldn't weight it this way

I know it is hellishly cold in London, I look for thick pyjamas for him, I bought him thick furry house shoes etc etc, not for any celebrations sake..

Maybe I'm too demanding for you? All I want is just these small little things but not something branded. I never ask for branded things, I can afford them. But if small little thing like those, wouldn't it be better if a bf buys you and not you buying yourself which ended up nothing much to be treasured on?

I am not asking for 10k bags, but just a 10 bucks small little useful thing from anywhere, that u think it suits me, or I need it, from what you know about my life. (or you don't?)

Maybe just a box of chocolate or candy favorite of mine, that I swear I have told you before.

Wouldn't it be warmer if the blanket is bought by someone you love, and loves you?

I see nothing from you in my room. I am pretty pissed. Or just being jealous of other girls..

爱情

爱情不是两个人眼睛对视，而是两个人的眼光看着同一个方向 :)

最好的承诺，不是爱你一万年，而是根本不需要承诺...

。。是信任。。

两个女生的家

两个女生的家，有着特别多不等用的东西

该有的都有了

有的只是两对脚

最多的却是，５５双鞋子 @.@

:(

time flies incredibly fast and it's now October.

I have piled up so much school work :( i dont want to be last minute again

SAVE ME PLEASE!!

i will be quitting my job soon, maybe in a week or two to prepare my exam.

October, well, it's not a happy month for me obviously

been crying continuously for 2 nights

too much plan and too little time

I have so much thoughts to scribble down here, but i have no time at all

to you, please do not ask me not to be regretful, as i will for sure, but if this is the best for you and me, i had rather stab myself now than kill myself softly slowly then

I love you still, I know I do..

I'm nobody, I have no guts, But you have no balls

I am nobody ,but a-not-patriotic-Malaysian, to the fullest.

After brainless Siti I* incident, what happened is that my facebook homepage is always flooded with all the bully video clips.

I'm legal to elect now, but it's never a good thing.

I am nobody, but I am not alone..

politics politics politics.

racism is an endless topic, endless battle for nothing, where you and me nor anyone out there have the capabilities to stop this ignorant behavior. SO, AM I NOT RACIST AT ALL?

NO WAY, the government, the society, and even the race itself made me a racist person, yes, I'm being ignorant then (blaming on others) But not ignorant enough to start a fight or bully other races, probably cuz i'm too tiny :P

If i got to choose or click on the remote to replay 513 incident again, and if this race war would ever then disappeared, no more racism, no more fights, no more low IQ creatures, I would definitely let it happen once again. But I would probably got killed by then :P

Race? I have no idea which brilliant one first to create this word before it even existed.

He/She is full of sin.

Do I love Malaysia? Not the people, not the creatures, not the society, not the govt, not the system, etc etc

BUT i do love the land, the blessed land, free of natural disaster, filled with sunshine and beaches, and the resources that would definitely place Malaysia as a world class country.
However, we have the wrong person wrong system WRONG WRONG WRONG, that sarcastically turned Malaysia into a third world country, that might last forever.

It's not a land with freedom of speech.

We have racist law, yes we do.

We have problematic govt, yes we do.

We have patriotic Chinese and Indians, yes again.

We have too much protection for bumiputra, YES, we definitely have it.

How funny it is to be a patriotic Chinese, and speak out the fact, and turned himself into sticky situation.

Yes, it is not a land with freedom of speech.

YOU are not ashamed of yourself, but keep putting Malaysia as a whole nation into jeopardy, and as a joke in the eyes of the world

YOU created a lot of "Siti I*", that use violence as solution but not knowledge

YOU are not even capable or qualified to educate but to create ignorant ones

Would bullying turn you into a happier person, or a billionaire? No! so whats the benefit of it? A way to release your jealousy? A way to hide your inferiority? Or a way to show your patriotism?
And when someone video-ed your stupidity, you try to damage their camera, not that you have no guts, but YOU HAVE NO BALLS and BRAIN!

Even 1 Malaysia concept and cuti-cuti Malaysia been strongly highlighting the the beauty of our multiracial and multicultural harmony nation. It's always ugly inside...

Shame on you, Malaysia

Shame on those who pulled the trigger starting race war

Shame on those ignorant racist ones

Shame on those "qualified educators"

Shame on TAR for the Bumiputra laws

But I have no where to go, but to stay in Malaysia, a place that recognized me, but not appreciating me.

because of my race..

Big girls don't cry

But I cried, guess I'm not "big" enough.

How short or how long 3 weeks can be?

Time flies like an arrow, especially when you are blessed with happiness.

Tears rolled down like a lil' kid once I stepped into the lift, I have always hated being alone walking back home, and knowing without you to welcome me back home with big hugs and kisses.

It's not an easy thing to convince myself to be as happy as when you are here with me when I clearly know that there will be another 3 months of being apart :(

I love you.

自大与自负

Was on the debate on the definition of 自大and自负the other day with mien, yi, and SS.

zi da and zi fu are both negative to me.

自负，you might be a talented one, u might share your knowledge with others, but one thing for sure, you think that no matter how hard others try, they will not be as good as you, you will still be the best

自大, = 井底之蛙, you think you are talented, you think you are the best, you think you are freaking pretty (in fact you're a slut), you think you are freaking rich (and keep telling everyone that they shouldnt tell out how freaking rich you are in case you get kidnapped), stepping on the same ground in the end

Can't be bothered that others camwhoring day and night, but please don't ever tell me that your intention is not waiting others to praise you by uploading tonnes of photos, yet act like you don't care if there is someone saying that you are freaking ugly or telling people that this is just a casual day for you (while you have spent freaking 4 hours to dress up and put on 3cm thick of flour on your face)

Can't be bothered that you are filthy rich and having 10 platinum credit cards, and Harrods is your second home, but please don't post up in Facebook or whatever media that give you a chance to show off by asking, "shall I get a Chanel or a Hermes today", or begging friends not to tell out that you have a Porche or Ferrari at home. They are just not so big deal in fact.

I have been reading on this famous Singaporean's blog for almost a year. Why is she successful? You might hate her, dislike her, think that she is ugly or what, but hey, she puts in 200% effort in every post, and 300% of sincerity. She accepts all the merits and critics, which I find a lot of young-quite-famous bloggers in KL are unbeatably narrowed minded and being petty.

Why are you a blogger? you accept money, blogging is your career, and being a famous blogger can't never run away from publicizing your life to some sense. You post up something, and you set a password that only your best best best friends are allowed to access. Or, you beg for comments and opinions for the post, yet not all comments will be published. This is not the way to be a good blogger, only if you think your beauty can last you another 10 years.

2 days left

I rang him at 12.10am before I could cool myself down after walking out from the smoking hot exotic striptease club :P

But 3 free international call delay every single word of us,

so he said, aiya! nevermind larh, we are going to meet up in 2 days time, you can hug me tightly and tell me about it.

YES! 2 days left, it has been ages for us, in fact, it's only 3 weeks away since our last good-bye

Hokkaido trip

I went to Hokkaido during 2010 winter break with pa, ma and gugu. It's must to visit Japan in your life time, you will learn and see many things that u have never seen or thought of in your life time. Have to admit that japanese are freaking SMART!!

Narita Airport
smallest car

At Kuan Yin Temple

Kuan Yin signature hand

LOL I have no idea why children in kanji is 小人


Very cute fire station

The toilet in our first hotel, very tiny and small

Our room

Authentic japanese dinner

Our room after they arranged the mattress for us when we were off for dinner

Japanese traditional pyjamas

Shirts provided for hot spring, we all need to be naked in front of everyone ><"

No luck to see one :(

Galaxy waterfall

近视，远视，乱视？？？老视

so what's 乱视？LOL

The cherry farm, we got 40 minutes to eat as much as u can, and they are all freshly pluck from the tree. I ate 100++ of them, the greatest amount among all. You can never have it in the supermarket. trust me!

Ok, i can't reach the high one, have to admit that :(

Pa was busy taking photos and I was busy eating. how i wish i can steal them back

green apple tree

that's the karaoke place like our redbox

McDonalds, favourite of all nations

what a bad day to visit lavender farm as it was drizzling whole day long

there were 1 million ++ drinking machines all over japan. One of the most enjoying thing to do during the trip is to drop coins in and trying different kind of japanese drinks

At 白色恋人castle, It's a chocolate factory

Ok, it will be my wedding cake one day :)

Daddy force me to act like i was really terrified :)

It's made of real bear, cruel people

Pa's fav, the famous ramen street, I had my supper there for 2 nights continuously.

See the cut at the front of the bear?

OMG!!! he wants my lavender ice cream as well!

It's the best fish i have ever had in my life time

Sapporo beer museum

You should try the beer, I'm in love with it.

History of sapporo beer's poster/advertisement

Shopping heaven

the taraba crab aka the king crab, only in hokkaido

You can have that as much as u can for free! but I only manage to eat 8 of them

Police is extincting in Japan, cuz they are too smart in using all the technology and police is no longer needed! plus, rasuah rate is low in japan, so why bother giving saman like malaysi* do?

The volcano

Trying out the temperature of the flowing water

It's warm and just nice to have a shower even the weather was only 13 degree celcius that day

I love you mom

On the way to visit the super cute and smart bears

They eat thru their nose

Bye bye hokkaido, the last day